I
just saw this Japanese movie called After Life .
Imagine after dying everyone going to an
intermediate , limbo station
where you are explained how your afterlife will work ,
How you choose to
create it.
You are interviewed and told you have 3 days to
think through your life
and decide your ONE favorite moment in your life. The
most perfect
moment. And after choosing , you will forget all
else and live eternity
in that moment.
Now certainly in those 3 days u will have
to deal with not wanting to
forget everything else , not wanting to just choose
one instance.
But you think back through all the moments of your
life that really
stuck in your memory.
[And
watching this film you are seeing these intimate time
stuck moments
of solace one by one for each person ....
i was really touched at the
uniqueness and personalness of their
best memory]
U cant
help but view and gently drift through your own
catalog of
perfection , however slight.
Seeing myself , now a father , through the eyes of my
4 year
old little boy , sharing in his new moments of
everyday experience ,
seeing him discovering something new. Me smiling at
his wonder.
Remembering that wonder.
I
remember being with my best friend , 7 or 8 yrs old
,playing this
imaginary game in his backyard . We would create all
the invisible
boundaries and other such rules of the game.
Playing
some game with the other neighborhood boys where the
winner got
to kiss the girl.
standing
on top , balancing myself on a fire hydrant , in
a breeze with
a fringe worn towel tied around my neck like Superman's
cape. sweet
balance.
I would
soon debate whether i was Batman or Superman , go back
and
forth.
laying
on my back ,squinting my eyes at the bright sky ,
making those
optical illusion "bubbles " float through
the air
cloudbusting
I guess
it was when i was 4 or 5, I remember being in the bath
tub and
being able to lay out flat, lining the bottom , being
the same length
as the tub. And fully extended i would practice
holding my breath,
wondering how long would people have to be underwater
before we would
form gills to breath underwater like
Patrick Duffy on Man from Atlantis. I wanted to be him
as i lay in that
tub for hours, like his clear fish tank he would sleep
in.
after school in 5th grade i was riding my bike home on
a PERFECT
afternoon. i convinced myself i could go fast,
throw my weight forward
fast enough to actually FLIP OVER forward
, 360 degrees , and land ,
and keep rolling. I was feeling fine!
I tried it , prolly went up about 12 inches , came
crashing down , bike
on top of me ... amazed i thought i could do
that.
but
then hell, when i was 4 i got my tricycle up on
our long, 5 foot
off the ground front porch. And thought i was Evel
Knievel [ however u
spell his name] , went as fast as i could
,flying off the porch to the
concrete.
The first thing that landed was my mouth. tricycle on
top of me. My
bottom teeth went through my lip , and i had plastic
surgery.
[ I still have a little of
that stupidity in me i think]
going
to visit my grandmother in another state , by myself
for a
week. / tinker toys
a tent
made from a sheet and 2 chairs.
rolling
myself up tight in a blanket ,like a cigar ,
comfort feeling
trapped , unable to move and fetally .
when i
was 3 or 4 [1974] me and my parents went on
these long driving
trips. We drove allot at night , my dad had a
white Monte Carlo,
I wanted him to have a green mustang like a
teenage boy up the road.
You know that area behind the back seat , where the
speakers are, at the
back glass.... I would lay across that area , i
was small enough to fit
perfectly , i would put my cheek against the cold
glass and get a bit of
a view of the stars above. I would stay there for what
seemed like all
night. Staring at stars. I don't remember thinking
anything.
but perhaps occasional spaceships
Later ,
we think of loves and passionate moments.
If we are lucky perhaps someone will have
us in THEIR perfect
moment.
in quite sTill drift